Scared...

So my friend Ashly has come up with the CRAZY challenge, to go make-up free for one month...she suckered me in to it....(not really, but kinda...) 

The reason being, to discover how God and other's truly see us. Not just because we look good or are dressed a certain way or because of the (fake) confidence that make-up gives you. To search deep with why and how He loves us. To search deep with who see's our value in who we are and not just want we look like.

I'm scared...seriously, I was laying in bed last night, trying to go to sleep after an exhausting week, and all I could think about, were different things I have going on this month that I'm REALLY gonna wish I had some make-up on. 

We are allowing some cheat days; i.e. my friend is getting married so i'm allowed to wear make up to the wedding.

But still, have I really been hiding behind the goop on my face? Does it really make me feel better or even look better?

I made Mk promise to encourage me along the way, cause after all, I really just need him to find me beautiful :) 

I will hopefully remember to document my experience here but we will see what kind of emotions come out of this challenge!

And so begins, a month of searching out what TRUE beauty is!

A memorable day

My savior lives! My savior died for you and for me! My savior is good, right, just, true, and the keeper of my heart!

Taste and see that the Lord is good, blessed is the one who takes refuge in him-Psalm 34:8

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Rain....

It's so strange, always the week before my birthday, it's like 75 and I think "great, sunny bday party :) " and then, the rain comes and my bday is cold and rainy....now this might be normal in other places, but so cal?! WHY, WHY WHY???? I'm suppose to have an epic party tomorrow and OUTDOORS! Gee, hope it's clears up!

I realize how much the weather really can play with my mood...I need to fight against that! Especially since I'm grateful for a wonderful hubs, that I get to have THREE of my five siblings around AND celebrate with all my dear friends!

Lord change my attitude please :)

But...rain rain, go away, come again another day!!!!!

Honesty

I love when you can have a real, crazy, soul lifting, HONEST, convo with friends! 

Last night, I was able to share with my beautiful friends, honest things. I woke up this morning feeling encouraged, loved, light hearted, and ready to take life on with fresh perspective!

I'm thankful for the friends I have in my life. I'm thankful that God has given me godly, caring, fun, women in my life, that encourage, stretch, and care for me! They also fill my heart with such joy as they come to our home and find relaxation here.

I would encourage everyone, take a step, share something honest with a person you trust. It's good for the soul. It encourages the sharer and the listener. It builds trust and relationship. It lets you see why God allows us to have friendships and relationship. Trust me, it is good!

Soundtrack

Yesterday was a bit of a blah day for me....I hate when I have days like this.
I felt:
 irritated
dissatisfied
sad
worried
unhappy
and I was comparing myself to so many others....that's probably my worst habit! I compare way too much.

Most of the things I long for and desire, I dont see as bad things, but they do distract me quite often. Oh man, if only I could just train myself to see all the good around me all the time. I need to see myself and my life, through Jesus eyes! Be grateful Rebecca!

So, sometimes I do wish there was a soundtrack accompanying me through life. I was listening to music and realized how much that would help those around me (specifically MK) to understand what I'm feeling in the moment....but that's just a silly dream :) 

I'm trying so hard to look on the bright side and be thankful for the "much" that I have...What a process!

Continuing on...

Timing

I've been learning a lot in the last year about Timing. Nothing seems to be in my timing, timing is everything, timing hurts, timing is surprising, timing makes me anxious, timing is hard to accept, timing...

You know how we're suppose to trust in God's timing?! We're suppose to know that his timing will work it out? Well, that's probably one of the hardest things for me. I like to plan. I like to have  an idea of what's going on. I like to have a little bit of control. That's not how God see's fit for me most of the time....

I've been processing the changes and timing's in my/our life right now and have started to see some of the good in God's timing.

We didn't go buy a house and therefore in this season of job hunting, we don't have to stress about a house payment (just rent :) )

We prayed and waited for a job for me and now I'm getting to have one of my favorite jobs ever!

We didn't rush into kids, so our season of just being married has brought a lot of growth, love and time.

We prayed for a church where we can grow, serve, and have community in and now are a part of the best church.

We allow each other to still be the person we were BEFORE marriage and are learning how to become one IN marriage.

Timing. Not always my favorite thing, but when you stop to reflect, it can be perfect!

2013!

Happy New year!
This is actually just a reminder to me, so that I remember the HAPPY part! I want to remember this year as HAPPY. Last year had it's not so HAPPY parts....but that's the joy of a new year! I have lots of ideas and need to prioritize them! I'm learning the older I get, the more I like fresh starts, new beginnings, and small changes! (notice I said small, I still don't care for big changes very much BUT small ones are ok!)

Life is certainly a journey and I hope to enjoy it :)